Well, it's officially been more than a year since I graduated college. And I'm inching closer to the date a year ago when I realized I didn't in fact have a full time job. There are days I feel like I've completely exhausted all my options: I have no more clue where to apply, I don't have any contacts who seem like they can help me, and I'm just so tired of plugging in my contact information into online employment portals. To sum it all up, I just want to be done with it all.
There's the negative side of things. Let me just say that as of recently, the majority of my days are the exact opposite of all of that. I'm finding that all this free time that I have is really letting me get to know myself better. It's helped that through all this, I moved across the country. I moved home, and while it's a familiar place, I've basically had to start over. Emotionally it's been hard, but I know when I come out on the other side, I will in fact be stronger. And therein lies why things have been so good. A little thing called faith. Things are hard now, there's no denying that, but there is the idea that things will be better.
"Faith is not just 'push a button' and you get the answer. For some vital decisions [we] experience the grueling, anguishing struggle that precedes a confirming answer. Yet those trying experiences [can be] edifying."
I'm learning slowly, day by day that what's really happening in my life right now, is me becoming edified. It's hard to recognize that when I'm in the thick of it, but I know it to be true.
"Faith will forge strength of character available to you in times of urgent need. Such character is not developed in moments of great challenge or temptation. That is when it is used. Character is woven patiently from threads of principle, doctrine, and obedience." All quotes taken from HERE
All I can infer from beautiful words is that my life up to this point has been a preparation for things ahead of me. I know I'll never be given more than I can handle, and while I'm going through this great challenge, that is something that gives me great hope.
